Currently Listening Big Dog Daddy By Toby Keith see related

Seems like every few months I update this thing, but better late than never. Ahh, what to say?!?! First, one more year done and my senior year coming up in about a week! I don't want to go back, but at the same time I do because I just want to get it over with. I only have 15 credits this semester, but they are going to be difficult as hell. Thankfully one of my long-time friends is in two of my CJ classes with me, so those electives won't be too bad. Also, pretty much half, if not all, of my class in CJ 323 is also in my CJ 427 class, so that will be nice to be going through the same back-to-back crap with Mahoney -- who by the way is new and no one knows how he is in grading or teaching. Sucks, but eh...can't be worse than professors I have had in the past. Only 15 credits this semester and then 12 in spring and then onto stepping into the real world. I don't know what I want to do yet; it's changed a lot since there have been more opportunities opening up all around me; the options are endless. Plus, once I graduate in May, I'll be coming back home....but it will be to a new home. Matt and I are moving in together once I get back home. We've been looking at apartments and condos to price things out so far. Most likely we're going to stay around here for a little bit...well obviously because we have something BIG going on in two years that requires us to stay around!

Alright, I'll say it. Most of you already know, but on May 18, 2007 -- the last day of exams -- Matt came up to Eau Claire to take me home. Well, we left the next morning because I had an exam until 5, but thats not important. Matt proposed that night, so we're engaged! I'm so happy. It seems like life is starting to kick off into the next stage whether we're ready or not. We are planning a June 20, 2009 wedding at my church, St. Matthews, and then we are currently booking the Ixonia Fireman's Hall for the dinner and reception. Other than that, not much is planned for it. I already have ideas for the flowers, color, bridesmaid dresses and my dress...of course! I'm a girl, so there needs to be no explanation. lol. Other than those things, we're just taking the wedding one step at a time and piecing it together.

So, that's the exciting news in my life. Getting ready for another school year, planning a wedding, moving in with my fiancee, and just living life. Well, I got to get going. Speaking of wedding planning, I have to drop off a form at the newspaper with my engagement announcement, and I have to see if I can get a hold of the hall to meet with them. Later all!

Currently Listening All the Right Reasons By Nickelback Next Contestent see related

New Year

Alright I know it has been a long time since I last wrote in here, but I have been really busy with everything that is going on in my life. For those of you who have myspace and have read my blogs there, then I am sorry for this might be a repeat of some things.

First, I ended up getting the 4.0 this past semester, which is somewhat ironic. I had 17 credits which is the highest I have ever taken and I get the best gpa. Irony. Anyways, also, one of my feature articles I wrote for my journalism class was printed in the Oconomowoc Enterprise on Dec. 28. That was pretty neat to see.

Well these last couple months have been bothersome. I found out at the end of spring semester last year that my two little sisters were sexually abused by their grandfather, and we have dealt with that ever since. It is hard to be strong for my family when deep down I was falling apart with everything going on. However, I know there is some plan or reason why I am going through everything I have been. The girls go to therapy once a week, parents go to therapy every Saturday, social worker comes to the house every other Tuesday, and Nanny 911 comes every other Monday. It is a lot to bear that is for sure. Aside from that entire drama, my grandpa had three surgeries within the last 6 months....one being two days ago...the first surgery they found a tumor...which turned out to be cancerous, so they went in again in October and hopefully retrieved the entire thing. Two days ago he had eye surgery, but he is doing well. My dad had surgery the week of Thanksgiving for two hernias, one on each side of his stomach, but he is doing well. My aunt had one surgery in August and then again a few weeks ago because she broke her leg after falling on some ice. Hmm..I think that is it for surgeries in my family. I have had my own personal problems as well. I got the news at the end of August and it sucks. I had to keep my immune system strong to see if my body would fight off the virus. I went back to the doc's to do a check up last week, and I got conflicting results. First I got a card in the mail yesterday saying I was fine and the virus is gone, and then two hours later I got a phone call from the doc's office and they told me my condition has remained unchanged so they want to do a follow up exam in 6 months. Well, wtf? Which one is it? I am assuming it is the latter one, unfortuanetly. However, they are opening up an inside investigation to see why the hell I was given the letter too if I wasn't fine so we'll see how that goes. I should be getting a phone call later today or tomorrow with the news. Hopefully, at the next checkup in June, everything will be back to normal. If it is not, I might have to undergo surgery in the summer -- which will not be fun at all. Hmm, my stepsister is pregnant and she is due any day now. Unfortuanetly I won't my nephew before I go back to school. She was told her due date was Jan. 9, then Feb. 8 then Jan. 24, then last Tuesday they told her within a week, but then this past Monday they told her that he hasn't even moved into the birth canal so it will probably be another 2-3 weeks. Darn and I leave Saturday or Sunday for the E.C. Oh well, it is another excuse to come back home to see Matt. :) Other than that, there is no more new news in my life. Hope all who reads this is having a good break and/or has a good semester back at school. Wish all the best of luck and leave a comment now and then and I will get back to you on a personal basis! Later all!

Long time awaiting...

Wow, its been forever since I have written on here.  I updated on myspace and unfortuanetly, I have to admit that I am more dedicated to that site then this currently.  Hmm, what has happened since the last entry:  Well, I celebrated my 2 year anniversary with Matt at the end of May.  I went camping with my family, and Matt, met my sister's new boyfriend and got to spend a lot of time with my puppy Maya.  My summer consisted of many ups and downs.  Not many people know what has been going on in my life, and on one hand I like that, but on the other I don't.  Some of my friends I used to trust completley, but now I am realizing that I haven't told them anything.  I briefly mentioned what has been going on, but they don't really know what is.  There has just been a lot of ups and downs since the end of school last year, and honestly, I am doing a ton better now than when I was at home.  For those of you who acutally took the time to stop by my work and see me..cause lets face it-I lived there this summer--it may have looked like everything was great, maybe just a little stressed.  What no one saw was that deep down I was on the verge of a breakdown.  Matt was honestly the greatest gift I have ever asked for in this world because not only has he stood by me through everything, he has helped me learn who I really am, and that I am beautiful no matter what happens, and other things that have been going on is not my fault. 

As I said before, I lived at Papa Murphys this summer.  I became the assistant manager and had to do training and a ton more things that I never had to do prior to this summer.  I loved it, but it was stressful.  I think I used work as an excuse to break free of my life at home.  I would always hang out with Matt after work to keep myself sane.  LOL.  Now that summer is done with, I know it is better for me to be up here than be at home, but I miss home this year.  I miss Matt.  I have always missed him every year I have to come up here.  I know that I am almost done so on that note, I know I can do it.  School is starting to get into full swing again, and it is starting to become difficult.  I know I can handle it because I believe in myself and so does Matt, and I know with God's help and focus, I can accomplish whatever may come at me.  This year I have 6 classes of 17 credits.  I have a music class-which is the easiest class in the world.  A religions class--its difficult but interesting.  CJ 222-which is news reporting and writing--I love it but it is difficult.  Then I have three history courses again as like last semester.  Only this time they are all upperlevel classes.  These are the ones that are starting to become stressful on top of the other three.  One of the classes is being a TA for a class I already took--I love it!  I consider teaching in this one, but then I remember that I lose patience fast so that would definately not be for me.  Then I have History 468-History of the Chippewa Indians and History 480-History of Wisconsin. 

Yea I know that is a load.  Trust me I am feeling it.  I moved into an apartment complex on campus a week after school started and I love it completely!  Freedom and privacy-yes!  Anyway, aside from all of this, I am trying to maintain my health weight wise and immune system.  Its tough, but it is going well.  Okay, yea I have lost 10 pounds since the start of school, but I am the weight that I started college at, so I am okay with it.  Immune system-well, I have been starting to get sick, but I am taking my vitamins and drinking my orange juice so hoepfully all stays well.  Okay, so this is starting to become an eternity and I do not want to bore anyone with this blog.  I will be lucky if anyone reads this all the way through-if at all.  I think that may be the reason I never write on here--no one leaves comments hardly and it is a waste of time once in a while.  However, that is a story for a different day.  For all of you who actually read this, I thank you.  Those of you who read my myspace too, I am sorry for the repetition.  Well, off to doing something....probably going to bed would be a wise choice.  Later!

Currently Listening Feels Like Today By Rascal Flatts God Bless the Broken Road see related

So long time coming, but need a break in studying; thus I am here.  Over the past few weeks I have realized that I have grown into a different person than I was in high school.  I am the same person, don't get me wrong, but I have different priorities now that mean more to me than anything in my life.  Kelly, my RA, gave us cards this past weekend at our last wing dinner, and what she wrote in there made me realize all of this.  She stated that she had seen me grow from a shy freshman into this confident, knows what she wants young woman, and it is true.  I have found something that I am passionate about and that is what I am going for in my life.  I have an amazing boyfriend who means the world to me...and within a year maybe a year and half, it won't be a boyfrriend anymore but a fiancee.  School is coming to a close, and I am thankful for it.  I have already done three exams this week and I have one more tonight and one on Thursday morning.  I got a 92 on one of the exams so I know I pulled off a B+ in that class.  The other ones are up in the air.  Also, I was offered a TA position for my history class next semester, but I do not know if I am going to take it or not because I already have 17 credits next semester, and I will have a shift at the front desk as well.  Oh the trials of life, but they are okay.  I have come to the realization that whatever happens in my life, there is a reason for it.  God will take me wherever he decides is best.  I already know one path of God's plan for me and that is Matt.  I couldn't be any happier than I already am.  Yesterday sucked because I was sick all morning, but I was able to sleep through the night last night and I feel much better today.  Well, that is all for now.  Teresa and I are going to go play a litlte frisbee and then its on to studying for that final that is at 7 tonight.  Wish me luck and good luck/congrats on those of you who have or had finals recently. 

Great song by the way!

"Bless The Broken Road"

I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true

Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

Now I'm just rolling home
Into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you.